Aug
2010- I am pregnant !! Heart racing fast, emotions rushing, excited, nervous,
overwhelmed........
Septem
2010- First appointment with OBGYN...... My first ultrasound !! Little heart
beating fast" dub-dub", "dub-dub",
"dub-dub".........everything looks fine, now relax and enjoy the ride
!!
Oct
2010- Nikhil ran a marathon in DC on halloween day. He accomplished his goal !!
Nov
2010- 9th marriage anniversary, went to La residence, french restaurant in
chapel hill, loved it. Romantic atmosphere, good food, my belly was now very
much noticeable....
Dec
2010-My AFP tetra prenatal screening test showed slight chances of having a
baby with Downs syndrome. They told me to get an amniocyntosis test to confirm.
It was a tricky decision, since the chances of having a baby with Downs
syndrome were 0.25% and chances of miscarriages due to amnio were the same. But
we decided to go with the amnio. Thank god everything went well, and the
results of amnio came out with flying colors !!
So
we decided to go on a Babymoon to celebrate!! Babymoon at the Hotel MGM vegas
!! ENJOYED thoroughly!! Watched Ka and Bluemans group shows, played Russian
Roulette, had nice food, got couples massage.....just pampered ourselves.
Entire
March 2011- Four babyshowers.......got lots of gifts for our baby and played
lots of fun games.
We
also painted her room, assembled her crib, and got all the essentials.....
April
2011- my inlaws arrived and the wait time started, now we were all ready. My
bag was all packed and ready to go!!
May
9th 2011- I walked and walked and walked till I was super tiered,
because I was just ready for the baby to come OUT!!
May10th
2011- My due date!! And here she is ready to come out!! My water broke at 5am!!
Water was all greenish in color, I was surprised, and shocked because that was
not what I had expected, I had no idea what was happening, why was the color
greenish ??!! Nikhil quickly looked up online and found out that baby had bowel
movement inside my uterus and hence the water is that color. We called up the
hospital and they told us to get there immediately. We rushed to the hospital
and they admitted me at 6am. They monitored the heart beat of the baby and my
contractions, they said I was in “labor”
but I had no idea because it wasn’t hurting yet, I must emphasize on YET!! They
transferred us to a nice big labor room, it was a really nice room, with a
Jacuzzi tub.
Then
at 7am my contractions started getting more and more painful and then I started
screaming bloody hell!! I tried getting in the tub but it wasn’t helping, my
greenish muconium filled water was still flowing out and it was just nasty to
be inside the tub. So I got out, I tried sitting on the labor ball, nothing was
working and the nurse was really trying hard to help me. I had all these dreams
of not getting medicated, no epidural, natural delivery etc etc. I tried hard
to not get any epidural until 12pm and then when the nurse gave me the big news
that I am not dialated and the delivery may take as long as 24 hrs I gave up
and just got the epidural and petosin to induce the labor !!
After epidural it was all manageable
pain and I was much relaxed, I had started bleeding and it was all a war zone!!
I was on liquid only diet but I was super hungry. They were monitoring babies
heart beat and it sounded fine so the doctors decided to let me try as long as
the baby is fine…… So I was all determined to get the baby out the natural
way……As I said before, those were just my dreams…….hours and hours
passed….nurses changed and doctors changed…..still no signs of her coming out
!!
May11th 2011:- This was “The day”. 27hours but no dilation beyond 6 inches !!! Then the doctors
gave up and asked me if I want to get operated, since they thought the baby was
in stress due to muconium…..
At
9:30 the doctors started prepping for the operation. I was in tears since I
thought I had failed to deliver normally. It was my dream to have natural
delivery but I suddenly felt like I had failed on my dreams.
At
10am they rushed me and my husband inside the operation theatre and I was given
local anesthesia. I was able to see and hear everything but I was soooo sleepy
and nauseated that in the middle of the operation I threw up on the doctor !!
How embarrassing!! I vaguely remember when they got Trishaa out and they
cleaned her up because of muconium in her airways and mouth…..they then handed
her to Nikhil and he brought her close to me so that I can kiss on her Cheeks,
I was soo much drugged that I could barely keep my eyes open to see her, so I
kissed her and instantly went to sleep. Then the chills and hot flushes
started, I was shivering so they had to put hot blankets on me and after that I
was sweating so they had to cool me down. It was just a nightmare. After the
triage room, I was transferred back to the recovery room, by that time they had
bathed Trishaa and swaddled her up and brought her to our room. I could then
see her, hold her nicely. That tiny little angel was lying in my hands, her
rosy lips, pink cheeks and tiny little eyes, felt so warm and delicate, it was
a great feeling, I could not believe that she was there with me for 10months
and now I can finally touch her and feel her, little hands, little feet …………I
was overwhelmed!!
Now exactly after 1 whole year
I am writing this down and still every little memory is crisp in my mind!!
After 1 whole year I can now say that every pain was worth it, every single day
was the most valuable day, enjoy it while it lasts, it may not feel like that
when you are waking up at nights, changing diapers all the time, calming down a
baby who is hysterically crying, trying to warm up the milk bottle when the
baby is hungry and screaming at you……….believe me you will miss all that and
more, so I am saying it again ENJOY IT WHILE IT LASTS BECAUSE THEY GROW UP VERY
FAST!!
On
this day I wrote up a poem for my darling Trishaa’s birthday :-
1 year old is such a big step
From crying to cooing ,
To first footsteps
From sleepless nights to sleepy head
Dreaming about the future ahead
Learning new tricks and making new sound
Curious to sit on a Mary-go-round
Still remember the day you were born
When I first kissed your cheeks and held you little finger
It brings tears to my eyes with all good memories that
linger.
